If the door is locked, we will break in through the windows. If anyone forbids us to approach the table, we will overturn it and serve communion on the floor. If any priest tells us we cannot sing this new song, we will sing it louder, invite others to sing it with us, and raise our voices in unison across all the boundaries of human contrivance- until this joyful chorus is heard in every corner of the world, and the church itself is raised from the dead.

~ Saving Jesus From the Church by Robin R. Meyers

I believe in being honest about life and not sugar coating the realities of this world, and my reality is that teaching is HARD. When I was watching teachers as a kid or even when I was student teaching, I had no idea of the realities that exist for teachers. The responsibility and weight of each child's education weighs heavily on the hearts of teachers every single day.

Today, I felt like a bad teacher. Sometimes, I can't fix things. I can't make kids chill out and I can't make kids stop melting down. I feel like, as a special education teacher, there is a certain idea that I have a more in-depth knowledge of students and their behavior. Of course I understand kids on a different level, but I still can't always find the magic words to make it all better.

Basically, I felt like a failure today because I could not work the magic and I could not fix all the problems.

Tomorrow will be better.

I will remember why I love teaching.

My kids will remember why they love me.

It will all be good.

And if not, Spring Break is in 2 days.